Me

I admit that I am a bitch. I tell people not to judge but I judge. It's like I will tell myself: I should not judge. I will not judge. But, I just do judge. I am also superficial. If you don't carry yourself well in public, in my mind you will have been deducted 10 points. Everyone says what's important is the inner beauty of someone. I agree, but also disagree. I will definitely not want to know someone which is not beautiful on the outside because they don't attract me. I am trying, though. (But please, if you have bad breath and body odor it's another totally different thing.) I gossip about people, but I do keep secrets very well especially if you're close to me. I like expensive stuff, quality stuff, good stuff. But it's not up to what I want, it's up to whether I can afford it. I am usually poor, even when I have money I sometimes say I am poor. I like to borrow my friend's money and return them after so long, sorry. I am calculative but I hate it when other people are like that. I don't like people to brag and say about how good they are in certain things. I don't like commitment, I admit that I don't like to go to church because it feels like a compulsory weekly routine. I hate it when I receive multiple messages from people from my church. I don't like it when they are always asking me to come to church. But I love God. I trust God. Even though I have tattoos, I am not afraid to say that I want more. Like I said, I don't like commitment. Believing alone in God is enough. I don't need to go to church and be clean "outside" to show that I believe in Him. I don't like awkward moments, I am easily jealous of other people. I wished I had better parents, richer and more understanding. But at the same time, I love them. I can never imagine being in a broken family. I hate thinking about what would happen if my parent(s) pass away. I think a lot. I say a lot. But what I think and say don't tally. Sometimes, I fake a smile. I am thankful for my optimism. I am thankful that I don't have any diseases. Although I always complain about my body, I am thankful for it. A complete body. I have 2 arms and 2 legs. This is already what some people don't have. I have a huge appetite but I always act like I don't in front of my friends. I don't want them to judge me. Imagine your friends are all saying they're full but you say you're not. I am not rich and I hate it when people say I am. Just because I have braces, cameras and everything I have doesn't mean I am rich. I want to shout to them to tell them how poor my family is. My mum's bank account is only left with a few thousand dollars. Even lesser than my brother's. I am always asking my parents to buy stuff for me but they are the type that don't. I have to apply lip balm 24/7. I majorly hate people who always say my lip balm is a 'want' and not a 'need'. It makes me want to point them the middle finger. Do they even have my lips? No. "What you see is NOT what it is". Doesn't mean my lips have to be cracked and peeling to prove I have dry lips. I can feel it myself. I've seen a doctor about it before, ok? It didn't help. Do you think I want to apply lip balm? It's so troublesome. It's so expensive to buy them. I hate it when people criticize what I like. I hate it when the rich flaunt what they have. I hate to see food being wasted. I hate people being late. I also hate being late. I hate to sweat. I love to swim. I won't really say sleeping is my first choice. I am very lazy. I like to make people laugh and entertain people. I hate it when people say I'm childish and immature. (-'-) I like it when I meet friends I've not seen for a while. I like it when people ask me out. I like surprises. I hate regrets. I love Funshion. I love my friends.