ha.ha.ha

FEELING EXTREMELY DOWN RN BECAUSE OF MY MUM

So... she's going back to malaysia tomorrow and I'm not because I'm having my exams next week. So she's not very happy because it's been quite long since I went back. So like usual (nowadays she always goes back alone because me and my bro are busy with studies), I told her to wake me up tomorrow morning before she leaves because I wanted to 'say goodbye' (without saying i wanted to say goodbye) and she said "for what, dont tell me you want to say goodbye ah" I WAS LIKE WHUTTTTTTT this is definitely the first time she's saying this and the previous times she would just be like "okay, goodnight" I AM THOROUGHLY HURT #NOTEVENKIDDING. And so because I'm not a person to say really sweet words I didnt reply her 'ya'. Instead, I told her 'to study la' and she replied 'tsk, study?! Don't lie la' HURT x2 so I said 'cannot meh' and she said 'you only study when im not around, never make me happy' 

P.S. I honestly wanted to study but now she said this, I dont feel like studying anymore
THX MUM

YA OKAY I JUST WANTED TO SHARE THIS 

I am honestly damn sad and I just teared when I went back to my room wtf right

Moral of the story: Think before you speak, you may be hurting the closest ones around you

P.S. and right now she's wanting to hurt me more by getting into my room and lecturing me on why i dont want some old clothes. 

I mean like seriously, I weighed 80kg then, she still expects me to keep those clothes? Hoping I get fatter?!?!?! YA OK THX MUM