8:54 pm right now....
Tomorrow's my last paper for MST and I am feeling so happy already. It's just like the end of a major exam. Except that it's not. It's been quite long since I've actually felt so stressed over an exam. The last time was obviously O levels. Poly is seriously a fucking stress place. Do not underestimate it. Everywhere you will see people studying even when there's no exams or whatever, just a normal day and all the tables are filled. And when you think life in poly is gonna be fun, no it's not. Everyone's so competitive. I don't even understand why. I have never felt this way in Secondary school before. But in poly, everyone's trying so hard to do their best. They are forgetting to have fun. Sure, go ahead and say I am naive and will grow to regret it. But what's the point of studying so hard? If the answer is just to find a better job, please shut up. Yeah sure grow up to be some old and lonely fool with lots of money alright. UGH enough of my rant. I don't even know why i am feeling this way. Must be because i am like right at the bottom of my class academically? Hate this feeling so much. I don't mind, i sure don't mind. But it's just that I feel so bad for being last. Everyone's understanding what the lecturers are blabbering and I don't even catch a shit. I AM SO STRESSED UGH I just wanna live my life fruitfully!!
Signing off, 9:08pm.
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